The separation

Dear Moumoun,

How are you doing?

This morning I thought about your farewell party in two months, I was thinking about asking the days off, so that I would have excuse not being part of the party. By thinking about all this, I felt so sad, because this reminds me of the longtime that I spend saying goodbye to you.

Since the first article of this blog, I kept waving goodbye to you. I don't know the meaning of seeing you again, I don't want to face with you, because I have no other means except protecting myself by staying away with you. But I could always see you, in the dreams, and during the days. What's more, sometimes I have to sit beside you, working with you, though it lasted not long time, seeing your eyes make me sad. You put all the gifts I gave you on the desk, each time when I saw them, I felt someone punched my heart.

What I have done for our relationship! I couldn't make it better, nor it will get worse.

The worst is not that I see you everyday, but the fact that I'm still loving you.

P.S. Even Fanfan had you appeared in her dream, poor girl.

Love,
Miao