It's been a long time. I hesitated several times to write to you, but finally was persuaded by myself not to write anything.
Since the end of the mission, I've been at home, busy welcoming the visitors from China and another girl who stayed at our flat for two weeks. I felt very tired, thinking that it was better keep being busy so that I would not have enough time to think about you. But you're not kind, either you send me the SMS each week or you appear in my dreams, again and again.
The day before yesterday I went to see the doctor as each month. He said that my cervix was slightly open and I should stay at home and rest well. And what's more, my baby's position is not yet turned, still having his head on the top. I've been scared and worried since then. I was so scared and I wanted to tell you and to get some comfort from you, but I know I can't.
I even don't know how to reply your SMS.
Pray to God that my baby will be healthy and will be born without difficulties.
Missing you.
Love,
Miao
