I'm only human

Dear Moumoun,

I feel so sad today, you asked me why but I couldn't say anything. Each time when I'm all by myself and thinking it all through I am about to burst into tears.

I couldn't tell you that it's because of you that I feel bad. I have no reason to be sad, but I am. And I don't know how to get rid of it, because I know that I can change nothing. I can't change my love for you, I can't show it before you, I can't say anything as I am ashamed by myself.

I thought I would love you no matter how you react, but I failed. Seeing you how you love your fiancée makes me sad, because you'll never treat me that way, and I will not participate in your future life.

What am I supposed to do? I accepted my weakness of maybe being in love with you, but I can't accept that I couldn't love you silently, accepting the fact you don't love me as I do for you.

I feel so sorry, I can't say anything to break out friendship, and I couldn't say anything, I feel broken down, I have to write it here.

How I wish I could tell you all this and leave forever, but I cant.

I've given my heart and can't get it back, I've had to many nights thrown at my back,

(Chorus)

Wouldn't it be easy to throw it all away,

Wouldn't it be easy to call it a day,

How do you love when you're broken,

I've had enough,

I'm only human,

I can't control what is out of my hands, God knows sometimes I just don't understand,

(Chorus)

So wouldn't it be easy to just turn the page,

Wouldn't it be better to throw the book away,

How do you love when you're broken,

I've had enough,

I'm only human,

I'll say in time there's a reason and a rhyme,

It's just a season with some lessons for your life,

But I wanna know why today is so much colder,

And I wanna know when the storm clouds will be over,

I wanna love when I'm broken,

I wanna love,

I'm only human,

When I see the sun I am starting again,

No matter the luck it's never the end.

Love,

Miao