It was a good day, maybe it was because I was looking forward to meeting S to hangout with her tonight.
The girl just came to ask me something, it was weird, I never liked her, why she asked me if I'm mad at her or I made her mad? I felt a bit guilt for one moment, just for one moment, because later when I saw her playing drama like being bullied by me in front of you! Luckily/sorry/Anyway, I don't care any more.
It was so nice talking with S, she shared her struggleing with me, I felt trusted and found my meaning on the world may be keeping all kinds of secrets. I talked to her a little about you too as I shared her my depression before the wedding. I think she must understand the struggle, I hesitated to tell her about the thinking of suicide, finally I gave up the thought. We both know that as Christians we should not feel that way, or think that way. She felt helpless too. Sometimes I think that I can feel the sadness of others , maybe it's just a reflection of myself.
I could feel that you felt very tired and stressed too. The life is difficult, but when I was on the train back home, I just thought that the life is beautiful too, as we are all connected like buttons together on the cloth of God.
It's so good that you're one of the buttons I had been linked to.
Have a good annual interview tomorrow, pray for you!
Love,
Miao
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