Back to the beginning

Dear Moumoun,

I never thought that I might come back, here or the company where I left. It seems like that after a year passed by, I have to be back again to the beginning.

I have to be faced with you, once again, in spite of all the efforts I had made to get away, from you.

I'll try, try my best to be professional


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Hi Moumoun,

The passage above is what I wrote in the end of May, when I knew that I would be back to the mission. I've started work since this Monday. It's not as difficult as last year, but it not easy either. The separation from Asher makes me sad. I saw you again, you were there, just like that I never left, But I can't help staying far away deliberately. I insist protecting myself, by holding all the emotions, all the curiosity, wanting to know how your life is, are you enjoying your married life, are you happy to still be there in the project, are you still helping your Mom for the restaurant...

What happened in the end of the day made me ask myself again, am I tricking myself in this kind of thinking that all has gone, I don't know what magic power you have that can always make me surrender. I hate you having this power.

I miss you.

Very.

Love,
Miao