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Moumoun,

Asher is growing fast. We're moving to a new apartment. It's weird, that I thought if I kept busy, I would not think of you as much. But there was a night waked from a dream where you were there, I cried for missing you. I threw away the box of chocolate you offered me last year to count the rest day before Christmas. This year's Christmas is approaching again, but, where are we now, what are you doing at this moment?

I bought a book of songs for children, where there is full of ancient french songs for the little. This song broke my heart. It's like talking about you and talking about me. Wish you and.your family all the best! Merry Christmas.

J'ai perdu mon amie
Sans l'avoir mérité
Pour un bouquet de roses
Que je lui refusai
Il y a longtemps que je t'aime
Jamais je ne t'oublierai
Il y a longtemps que je t'aime
Jamais je ne t'oublierai 

Je voudrais que la rose
Fût encore au rosier
Et que ma douce amie
Fût encore à m'aimer
Il y a longtemps que je t'aime
Jamais je ne t'oublierai
Il y a longtemps que je t'aime
Jamais je ne t'oublierai
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M'en allant promener
J'ai trouvé l'eau si belle
Que je m'y suis baigné
J'ai trouvé l'eau si belle
Que je m'y suis baigné

Miao 

Whether, you still remember me

Dear Moumoun,

Can't stop dreaming about you, you smiled at me in a blue cardigan, in my dream.

It's soon Christmas again, this time last year, you offered me an advent calendar of Hello Kitty with one chocolat each day to Christmas. Then we had a big fight, and you engaged with your girlfriend then. It's like a long time ago all this happened. Still remember the first article in this blog was describing the day passing at Carrie's flat, watching the movie Elf with Grace and her.

One year has gone, nothing left between us except your flu image in my dreams. I miss you very much. This will be the first Christmas after marriage for you. No news at all from you. After the birth of Asher, Miao seemed disappeared from this world. Weiredly enough, that was always what I wanted, disappeared from this world. But my body and responsibilities are still here, I need to persevere, waiting for the end. Being forgotten sometimes is difficult to accept, but the time of adaptation is not forever and a day. I don't want to do the social things, while it is inevitable as for the little newborn.

How I miss you every deep night without sleep or sleep with dreams. I am afraid that you'll again enter my dreams and destroy my peace.

The weather is getting cold, take care.

Love,

Miao