Something missing

Dear MM,

The week without you seems very long, but not as difficult as I imagined. Every day I work hard, hoping to see your smile while you're back.

I always thought that maybe I'll keep my "love" for you, if the feeling should really be called "love", no matter whether you'll get married, have children as I have done. But when I saw the picture with both of you in the sunshine, almost nude on the beach, for the first time I didn't laugh like a baby when I saw the picture from you in the vacation. Maybe my feeling is not as pure as I've thought.

It's not sad, it's not a feeling of disappointment, I don't know how to explain it... It seems that there was something stuck in the stomach that I don't feel well.

I should feel happy as you're happy, shouldn't I?

I miss you, you were in my dream last night again.

Anyway, you have to go far away to protect your beautiful rose. That's what I had already know, but I don't understand why I'm not feeling good.

There must be something missing.

Love,

Miao