Love & Coke

Dear Moumoun,

Yesterday was fast, when I was back my computer was not turned on, so I didn't have the chance to write a letter to you.

Last night, a little girl was crying in front of me, she reminded myself crying for you. She was crying for her boyfriend left her alone without saying anything after church. I accompanied her to the railway station without saying anything. She asked me whether her boyfriend didn't love her anymore. I said of course not. She asked me then why he left without saying anything, he used not to do that before.

Girls always feel insecure with the important persons. She told me she was afraid of losing him, but she couldn't do anything, she kept crying. As I saw her crying, it seemed that I saw myself crying for you. I couldn't leave her alone to the station, because I knew the feeling of being abandoned, if I had not been with her, she must feel much more painful. While I was conforting her, it was like conforting myself. Loving someone always means that you have to stand the pain of being hurt. Good news is that she went back to look for her boyfriend, and they reconciled with each other later. Bad news is that I might have given up always feeling painful about losing you.

I feel more relaxed in stead of feeling being ignored when you talked with you friend just of something you know between just you two. He said something about your site, I asked you more than twice you didn't react at all. Then you said without anything changed in your face, like that was nothing, "I created a blog yesterday." Ok. If you knew that I'm writing in a blog in the form of writing letters to "you" in the same time, you might have felt more shocked. Haha, lets keep it just in the tummy, and digested with all the terrible things I couldn't speak out. I decided to write to the Moumoun in my mind instead of physical you.

Speaking of digestion, last night I was lying on the bed reading the articles written by an author I love. She was living in the Sahara desert. She talked about thanking some neighbors with sodas. That reminds me of the cool feeling of drinking coke after a hot summer day. Oh, I needed a coke. Then I drank all the rest coke in the fridge brought back from church after the dinner. Then all went wrong!!!! I felt so unwell in my tummy that I couldn't sleep at all. It was already nearly 1 o'clock... Then I said, I'll never drink Coca Cola any more!!!

Love,

Miao