Dear Moumoun,
It's been almost three weeks that I've been back.
I feel awkward, each time when I have to face with you alone. My piano teach told me to get lyrics in Chinese to match "Knocking on Heaven's door", what shocked me is that all I thought about was you, and this song was written for you, for us, or rather for my story with you.
The teacher asked me to listen to Benjamin Clementine's Winston Churchill's Boy, at his album, I heard another song "The Movies never lie", there are two lines make me want to cry:
"So I wish you I wish you ... I wish you all the best,
Though I miss you I miss you...I miss you not the least"
I really miss you so much. I can feel that you might want to get closed to me, but I refuse, I prefer to stay far away from you. I don't know whether I am understandable, it's how my instinct acts, I just don't wanna ever ever get hurt again. It took already too much of me to get over, and I'm still getting over. I even couldn't tell if I would get it over finally.
But it's part of my life, part of choice.
It'll be a long weekend. We'll get Asher to see the sea, his mom's beloved sea.
I think you'll have some plans too. I've been away from your life for long time. I'll never know what happens in your life. Wish you all the best!
Love,
Miao
